GRAMS - Its a new year & you're really not here!!! **2015

You taught me prayer
I pray today because of you
You inspired a belief within me
You were the Master of our tiny family
What are we to do without you???

You have instilled within us

The most honourable teachings a parent can ever instil
We are trying by all means to go on
But believe me its hard
No one else gets us
No one else will ever love us like you did/do (for I believe you still do wherever you are)
No one else can satisfactorily ensure our safety and health
No one else can demonstrate the absolute care that you naturally expressed

I miss you every day and that is no lie

On the 8^th of Jan 2015, you occupied my dreams for the 1^st time since you left us
It was a wonderful dream, I was ^*preggies and we went on a road trip to Durban
On arrival when we returned it was raining hard, I was so scared that I went into labour,
You were right there next to me to soothe the pain,
Rubbing and massaging my belly ensuring me that you will always be there...
... And that I shouldn’t worry.
I guess rubbing the pain away and calming us down has always been your thing.
I cried when I woke and realised it was all a dream,
Wished to not have yet awakened, just so to feel your warm hands a little longer.
I cried at the remembrance of you telling me you cannot wait to see and take care of my children,
Now it saddens me to think that even when ‘they’ come, you’re not here, at least not physicallyL.

Alright well enough sobbing, it’s the New Year grams and we welcome it with a Bang J

Mom finally bought her dream car, but you probably already know that.
She was taken by the Mokones’ and I bet you are thrilled at that since you always wished they do.
Things are looking ‘Okay’ except the fact that; we all wish you were here to share this HAPPINESS with us.
Ginah started CrècheJ, still getting used to it... IF you can, please help her settle.
Omphile still makes us proud with school results; she did extremely well and is going to 2^nd Grade...
... IF you can, please help keep her as focused.
And well as for me, I’m supposed to finish my studies this year and I truly hope to.
I’m prepared to do whatever it takes... IF you can, please help keep my study spirit alive.
You always asked when I’m graduating, because you wanted to see me in that gown.
I asked you for patience, ignorantly taking TIME for granted because little did I think that you might not be there,
I knew it was possible but I always applied law of attraction hoping it extends ‘your’ years,
While God’s plan was a rather different one.

Well, No More procrastination I swear...

This borrowed time needs be used wisely as if it’s the last we have.
Mom also still cries at the thought of you... IF you can, Please soothe her pain with more blessings.
I probably sound quite demanding, but Koko IF you can, please scrap off this fear you know we still have, help us maintain the ‘strength and fearlessness’ you always attained.

Love and Miss you Always and Forever...

TILL WE MEET AGAIN *LegadimanaNtweng