01 Oct 2015_04:51am
-Kokie Molie
I would if I could...
I would
Scream at the top of my lungs
Let out this silence of this so called strength that has been hung, inside of me
This knot in my throat, one in my stomach and the other one tangled up in my heart
If I could
I would
Loudly sing along with your melodious voice in my head
Stretch out my hand and hold on to you tightly close to my heart
Call back at you calling out my name, call on you without feeling the pain
If I could
I would
Laugh out loud at our funny memories
Jokes we used to crack in the cracks of dawn
Fearing God and quickly taking back judgments we’d impulsively make on life
If I could
I would if I could but I can’t,
And it’s probably only human that I fear judgement from others,
Of being pushed into categories of insanity
Mingled with definitions of instability.
This I fear.
I’m only human, and I would if I could but I can’t!
Maybe one day...
