HOW COULD HE???

So last Wednesday night something crazy happened, and I've been thinking about it for quiet some time now since then.

He'd been sick, full blown terrible flu. I went over to his place to take care of him.
Knowing very well that I'll catch all that flu from him, I didn't care, He needed me.
So there we are, medication all around us, him sneezing and coughing and just being very sick and me mothering him of course.

Anyway, fast-forward to going to bed that night.
I think 2hours into sleep I was awoken by his painful coughing coming from the bathroom.
I jumped out of bed very concerned, ran and barged into the bathroom.
I was saddened by the sight of him that weak and sick, with tears in my eyes I asked if I can get him anything and seeing that he was irritated by this flu that he didn't even know what I should get him.(He's always the medication and diagnosis know-it-all by the way).

I put my house shoes on and ran downstairs, filled the kettle up with water, took his new birthday coffee mug (displays a picture of him and his daughter when it gets hot water... somehow I thought that would cheer him up a little). Ran back upstairs with these things and plugged in the kettle in the bedroom to make him some MedLemon.

He got a little better and we went back to sleep.
Now what happened next upset me so much, I don't even understand why though.
I didn't even check the time when this happened but it was some time in the early AMs.

Okay, so what happened is...
I had a dream, that "we were at some restaurant and he was completely fine, not sick at all.
We were having a good time when the waiter started trying to hit on me.
We didn't like it, so I suggested we call the manager so we can change our waiter.
He blatantly said "Nah, let's just go sit somewhere else".
So there we are getting up and he leads me to a table next one that has a whole bunch of woman."
This is still a dream by the way.
"He sits right by their side and starts chattering about, totally ignoring me.
I tap his shoulder to ask him what's up, he doesn't even glance at me...
So I'm completely upset at this point."

And suddenly I wake up to find my arm around him.
I think I thought I was still in this dream coz I was still so upset.
I took my arm off of him and moved to my far end of the bed **so angry**
Thinking how could he do something like this to me.
Lol like I was sooo mad I forgot he was sick.
I must've have eventually fallen asleep because I woke up to my alarm at 5:30am.
I didn't remember the dream until a bit after he woke up after my shower.
I couldn't stop laughing..

I think about about it today and I still crack at myself acting up like that.
I literally reacted to that in real life and couldn't stop myself.


This was the craziest thing to happen, I mean I've woken up crying hysterical from nightmares but this here I thought was hilarious.

Has this ever happened to you???
Wake up very upset at someone for what they did in YOUR dream?

Do Share!

... Random Update...

Alright it's yet another week and here's my little post update.

This past week has been a bit on and off actually, but mostly on.
I took a day off work last Monday and headed to The Department of Home Affairs to collect my passport and brand new smart card ID, and fortunately it didn't take all day.

YAY!!

• One of my colleagues, came back from Maternity leave and oh was I excited to see her again after such a long 4 months ...Her baby daughter Zuri is soo adorable and looks so much like Aunty K ;).

• I was able to go to varsity to register for the next semester, and oh well.. the money they need. Holly Molie its like they guarantee you a job with that.

• I got to spend a wonderful candle-lit evening with Him, not because Romance but because Cable Theft.. LOL. 

• I went home to see my mom and little sisters, and I had lovely time with them. They were very excited to see me and because I'm a cool sister and an awesome daughter, I scored myself some cool brand new boots from Mommy dearest.

• Another part of my weekend was spent with my Bestie, she cooked for me!!! Yayyy. We also went to catch a very late movie at the Mall Of Africa, watched the hilarious Central Intelligence movie... I hadn't laughed so hard during a movie until then. We stayed up until around 3.am chattering the night away.

The weekend ended pretty quick but that's alright, we have another one coming up very soon and it looks so good already.

Oh and might I add, I still struggle with procrastination guys like what the hell hey?? I've been chanting in my head to go do my hair but oh noo, the laziness level be higher than the dedication. SMH I'm still working on it.

Well I hope you had yourself a lovely productive week too. If you don't mind, let me in on what you got up to on kokie.molebale@gmail.com, or maybe hit me up on Instagram and I'll see from your timeline the fun times you been having ;). 

Keep well til the next post. Thanks for reading, Me loves it!!!

WHO IS KOKIE MOLIE???

Hello darlings, just a reminder... nothing hectic and nothing deep.

My name is Kokie Molie (Koketso Molebale), 

and here is all you need to know about me (for now):

  
#SELFIESYNDROME

Oh don't worry, I do Smile... A lot!

So, I'm a Gauteng based lady in her 20's just in case I haven't mentioned this at all.
For those who don't know, Gauteng is one of the 9 provinces in South Africa... South Africa being one of the 54 countries in the African continent. Africa is one of the 7 continents of this Planet called Earth.
I'm not trying to be funny mentioning these countries and continents, I've just happened to come across a lot of people who actually and honestly thought Africa was a "country on it's own"(Zuma's voice *lol*)... It especially comes from people outside Africa, ignorance perhaps, or the probable government-selected education syllabuses. Well now you've been educated dear Earthlings #wink.

I was born on the 28th March, and am the eldest of 3 sisters.

US Three.

A little more about me is a few of my passions...
Music; Writing; Photography.

The love for Music runs from my very heart throughout my veins. It's a passion I was definitely born with because the memory of where it all began goes far back beyond my own reach. I find peace in Music; it soothes my soul, my mind and my heart.. In every emotion I find myself in, I wrap myself in music and I'm at peace with everything. I find beauty and fascination in the sounds made by the birds, the waters, and the winds.. Weird?

My Writing interest began at a very age, following rapidly growing stages of the love for reading. With this came an interest for 'imagery' (Photography), as it was through pictures that the words were created in my mind and inked on paper. I became fascinated with peaceful sights that spotting and capturing such images came naturally to me.

Random facts:

• I'm a sucker for Romance... I love the smell of old Books * I don't like eBooks * I prefer books before movies. I love Flowers, more especially Lilies and Roses.

• All-time favorite color is Green; Movie is The Notebook; and song is If Tomorrow Never Comes. 

I'm not big fan of cake, but I'd take 100% Chocolate cake any day. I love road-trips and adventures. I have Thalassophobia (fear of diving in or swimming in the ocean/sea). I can cook, I love wine.

• I'm crazy about the shapes of my Eyes and my Teeth. Apparently I Sing very well when convinced that no-one is listening. I'm both smoothly captivated and revived by Sunsets, Sunrises, Full-Moons, Stars, Raindrops and Rainbows. 

• When I'm stressed I sleep. When I'm worried I cry. When I'm upset I clean up.When I'm happy I talk TOO MUCH.

• I love being driven than driving***. Dogs are my absolute favorite animals. I have veeery few close friends, literally less than 5. I've never been out of South Africa, I've actually only recently gotten my passport.
• I have Pork Intolerance. I don't like Cheese, Liver, Peanut Butter, Olives, Pumpkin, Sweet Potato, Honey, Dumpling, Garlic, and Plain Yogurt.

Sometimes I love to think I'm a super model... LOL, don't judge:

 

 

More of Me on: 

Facebook - Kokie Molie

Instagram - Kokie.Molie

Twitter - @Kokie_Molebale

Snapchat - kokie.molie

SoundCloud - Kokie Molie

Reverbnation - Kokie Molie

YouTube - Koketso Molebale

LinkedIn - Koketso Molebale

Ok that's all... "Story Time #2" will follow soon.

A COME-BACK!!! (What really happened to me)

I feel so bad. I feel as though I've neglected my passion for writing.
Writing Inspiration comes and goes, and comes right back again... but in my situation it feels like it's been gone for too long. In the past 6 months I've only put up 1 post, one you guys, ONE!! :(

So I've been internally complaining about this, and it has been eating me up.. but being the hopeful me, I kept chanting that "I'm gonna do it soon.. I'm gonna do it soon" and then I never really do. Until now of-course and I think its basically because I voiced out my concerns last night. I finally broke the silence off and that must have inspired me because here I am.

Between my last blog post(which was posted on my other page, do check it out.. I'll put the link at the end of this post), so yes between then and now... I've generally been busying myself with my 9to5 and my school work, and at times I would get swamped and busy at work that I'd take some work home... and I'd get really depressed because my school work would fall behind so I would cry my eyes out cause I felt it was just too much and I couldn't take it anymore.
So anyway, I really can't think of anything else that I started and successfully finished besides those two. It's like I was cursed, seriously... I've had sooo many exciting ideas to doing creative things, and they all crumbled down because I never really took initiative to put them to life. So I always told myself that I was cursed with the spell of Procrastination, and I never knew how to break it. The 'old me' would blame all this on not having been going church for a while, but no it's not that, however the church matter will be discussed some other time. Today I'm definitely breaking this spell of Procrastination.

**One of the ideas I've been pondering about(for years actually), has been taking my photography passion to a whole new level. So I'm really passionate about "single-handedly" capturing breathtaking pictures of nature, or even arranging different suiting angles and atmospheres for amazing photographs. Last year I got myself the perfect cellphone for doing this, so I got the cellphone as opposed to a camera because I know it's always in my possession, it's portable and it's pretty modern. I guess I figured that  a 20.7 MP with autofocus at 1/2.3" sensor size, LED flash, HDR, panorama, touch focus, face-detection (Oh excuse me for going on and on, I can't help it I love this phone, lol ... and it's for nothing else but the camera features which also happens to work quiet well underwater).
So I'm definitely resuming that one idea up. I think though I'll need to get me a proper camera that'll be used for that alone, I may need a more professional device for this work than a sexy one.

**Another issue that's been bugging me is that I started writing a novel a while ago, and I've been stuck on this some chapter for a year now if not more. So clearly the delay-bug bit me long ago, way longer than I've been putting out. I swear I'd even procrastinate calling my close family and friends.

**Also, I may start vlogging soon... stay tuned up on my YouTube channel to see my videos.

I appreciate the people that get to the bottom of my posts, actually reading them. I feel like it's an amazing window-opportunity for me and you to connect, as you read my posts we link up in a way and that easily vanishes the barrier of us being strangers. Connect with me more, let's talk, let's link up(my contacts and all links to my social media accounts are found on my Google+ profile). We could become good friends, if you're a writer as well perhaps, you love music, road-trips, and value good times with good people, or you're simply a reader who sometimes feels alone and feel like talking to someone (about anything really: no perverts though).

• For news and updates on my opinions about The Happenings of the World (Music, Lifestyle, Food, Fashion, etc) : http://thwkokie.blogspot.co.za/ 

African Queen - Kokie Molie

Someone (not mentioning any names), made this for me, trying to charm charm me... Lol, its a cute gesture but hey I'm not easily taken like that...



I mean Yellow bone nyana like me, African Queen?? well I am an African and I like being regarded and treated as a Queen, so for that I'll be flattered and blush a little bit!! But if this was a "Shela" strategy, trying to hit on me and all, then LOL!! Askies my brother :)



Anyway, I'll make something nice and trendy out of it and say #CantWaitForSummer #SummerCountDown, share if you're impatiently waiting for summer ;)

Kokie Molie #takeONE

Oh my Gosh ... I'm actually doing this #Breathes

Bitter-Sweet 8th Nov 2014 _ #CousinVibes

My wonderful late great grandma was laid to rest on the 27^th of September...

This utmost unfortunate event brought together families from all over
And obviously those in my interest were my generation
Those I had last seen close to 10years ago
Those who seem to have even outgrown me
Those I had no idea I would find myself bonding with and loving every minute of it
Those I had only ever heard of yet had not officially met
Those bubbly holy loving cousins that blame the parents
For our long lost connection J

A lot that has changed over the “10years” was caught up with on that one single day

We reconnected and the family love was rekindled
That one single day we cried together, ate together,
Laughed together and talked for hours together
We enjoyed each other’s company so much so that we suggested a Get-Together
For the 8^th Nov 2014, as “cousins”only, under different circumstances
For the purposes of “Getting to know each other”and “Having a good time” whilst at it
Knowing each other?! We DEFINITELY did, even beyond what we had thought
Having a good time?! So and so, there and there, definitely NOT from start of day till end
I’ll just go on and blame it on the liquor BUT some serious misconduct transpired
And they need to be addressed

I won’t go about and lay down exact details of the incidents here for the world to judge us

And I won’t be any judge of any kind as well; it is neither my place nor character
I will though, be critically opinionated
Especially since this get-together was hosted at MY place of residence
Anyway, before I get to that, the part where most people would probably say “Ke iketsa betere”
Where they’ll probably misinterpret my words on paper and start judging me instead
I will start by addressing my most enjoyed episodes

So we had: One Molebale and Friend; One Legodi and Friend; Two Janis and friend;

One Chaane; One Makhudu and friend; Two Ginindas and friends
This summed up 14 lovely individuals and history makers #LOL
8 beautiful ladies and 6 handsome guys
Cast for epic series of events in 24hours alone
We had a combination of Royal Pains; Vampire Diaries; Wrestling
Including Dr Phil moments as well
It was a night to remember I must say

So the ladies started by the swimming pool

To cool off from the heat of the day
Then later we collected the money contributions
And we all split to do some shopping for the food and drinks
The weather decided to take a turn and rain on us
So no more Braai, instead we had a barrel of 21pieces of KFC
We showed the rain who the bosses were when we started our chill session
...By the shelter with some music, drinks and hubbly.
One thing I just remembered now now is that:
I put on some gospel music and we were preparing for prayer, BUT WE NEVER PRAYED!!
For some reason the music was changed and WE NEVER GOT TO PRAY!!
#This was the BIGGEST MISTAKE OF THE NIGHT

Chaane was terrified of actually getting in the pool

So much so that she remained by the shallow step the entire afternoon
...Until she had 2/3 of her favourite drinks later
Then she was all over the pool and loving every moment
Legodi just loves swimming
And with the lessons from one of Gininda friends, she got better and better at it
Janis (My Boere cuzzies as I normally call them)
They were comfy with “Oom Landlord” showing them the do’s and don’ts in the pool

Legodi’s Friend, a very lovely lady, free spirited and pretty

Makhudu and friend were welcomed whole heartedly that we dedicated the gathering to them
Why? Because no-one believed they would actually make it
Makhudu just has this thing of telling half truths #LOL and not living up to promises
Well I am personally proud that he proved us wrong this time around
Everyone was impressed, big ups man
One Jani couldn’t make it #sad ... but next time he better be there
One Gininda is funny and always complains, he was suggesting we go to other places that evening
After every half an hour he would say he’s leaving #LOL
(he was actually the last person to leave the next day)
He’s just crazy fun in any ways, earned the name“Spoornet”

One Gininda is quiet and was always busy with the hubbly bubbly

He loves the phrases “F#$K THAT SH*T” and “GANGSTER SH*T” #LOL
I’m still crazy about his bucket hat though
One of Gininda friends, the Will Smith look-alike is just super sweet shame
No problems, no stress, just always having fun
All smiles, drinking and dancing all night, and “loving”people
Causing no trouble for anyone, he was the first person to sleep though...**hahaha**

So we had dinner and then around 8pm...

Myself (Molebale), one Jani and friend, took my friend to her workplace
By the way thank you guys for that kind gesture
So now there were 13 of us left
The rain hadn’t stopped, yet Chaane and I decided to go swimming
So we dragged everyone else with us and took the party up to the pool area
It was sooo much fun, it became some kind of unplanned pool party
Everyone was in pool despite some other “situations” and no one even minded #LOL
One of Gininda’s friends, jumped in with his shoes, cap, jeans and t-shirt on #EPIC
After the pool, he spent almost the whole night in my night gown as everything of his was wet
This earned him the names “RraDitlhako (Mr Shoes)”and “Stjwetla”

The night went on all fun and loud

Party was moved to the house, by the bar area. Where the first weird crazy incident happened
Then everyone suddenly changed to being Dr Phil, lol myself included
You know how they say “Alcohol triggers the ‘truth’ muscle in the brain”??
I still wonder if that is indeed so
I mean weird things just come out of a person when they’ve had one too many to drink
I speak this from experience too, you just cannot help it. So I won’t judge
I should suppose this was an opportunity for us to learn
That as cousins we actually really want the best for each other
How we tried to be Oprah’s and Dr Phil’s was kind of cute
How we learned that the next outing “who should NOT be drinking what and why”

All went back to normal, the situation subsided then the party was moved to my room

Jika-Ma-Jika happened yho people can dance
One Jani, Legodi friend and Makhudu friend were dancing like WOW(as in they were NOT getting tired)
But they can’t beat the Chaane dance move
This move was discovered on the 27^thSep, with one of “our” uncles #LOL
Well this time around Chaane was dancing with “Mr Shoes”
Oh and Spoornet CANNOT dance I can testify because I saw the video,
Shame he’s just like me **hahaha**

It slowly got chilled and relaxed and some began to sleep

Legodi and Makhudu friend slept... By this time Will Smith look-alike was Looong gone
Then everyone else chilled for a while until probably 05:00am
We were all settled in our spots very much prepared for sleep...
...when the VampireDiaries began and woke EVERYONE up
This was then followed by Wrestling which then woke the rest of the others in the house
So not impressive, all this was extremely shocking to see happening right out of nowhere

It all felt surreal, felt like I needed to be woken up quick because it wasn’t nice

I need to state this that I was disappointed, hurt, shocked, and angry and confused
It made no sense how all of that just “happened” after such a lovely time we were having
I felt like screaming yet nothing came out
Note To Cousins: This issue still needs to be sorted out, we all deserve an explanation
We cannot just sit and take the apologies for such a huge offense
That was a massive F#$k up, and to this day I’m still upset about it
I do not want to hold grudges, I hate it. But I as the ‘host’ felt really disrespected
And I feel I truly need a One on One session with the Vampire/JohnCena of the day
To get a proper apology and an explanation
The 2 victims (bitten and beaten) also need to understand where all that erupted from
I hope they all well

Although it was made certain that everyone leaves with some kind of smile on their faces

I bet Questions and Confusions were throbbing in their heads...
For now I can safely say “Our Vamp” needs a mini punishment until we get his whole story
The deal is, the next gathering or two, we cannot have Vamp
‘Cousy’ if you will read this, please note that we do NOT hate you,so please don’t make us..
What happened was VERY WRONG and SCARY, DANGEROUS and SHOCKING
Hence I think we all deserve to understand what happened
For starters, my reputation got shattered as the tenant in that place
Second of all, I charge for my tears, so you owe me big time
Lastly, I’m writing this with my room still a mess because I just have no energy to do anything

Before this turns into a bible, I’ll close up by saying to my Spoornet cousins:

I LOVE YOU ALL REGARDLESS ...
I HAD A GOOD TIME REGARDLESS ...
I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE YOU GUYS AGAIN SOON!!!

The 8^th November 2014 was filled with Bitter-Sweet memories

History was made I suppose –We have pictures and videos to prove it.

#ViaSpoornet #CousinVibes #FamilyMatters #LoveNoMatterWhat #SpoornetCousins

#JANI #LEGODI #MOLEBALE #CHAANE #MAKHUDU #GININDA #AndFRIENDS

MY SILENT THERAPY

During the years of my life

...I discovered the one and only way to deal with my emotions of anger.

I finally found the best way to calm myself down and avoid further heartbreak,
To avoid further annoyance,
And avoid making matters worse.
This “magical weapon” of mine is SILENCE.

As much as I’m in love with words,

I do not like voicing them out, I rather prefer jolting them down
... And letting the world inside of me this way.
Once I’m upset and forced to share my thoughts and emotions verbally,
I explode and refuse to hear reason.
It’s like the more I speak about my anger, the more I feel:
Invincible; Selfish; Superior; and just NOT wrong

The more I speak the more the anger boils.

The more the boiled anger, the bad the ink on paper
... The arrogant and hurtful words flow easy and are written with no consideration.
Some kind of hatred for the next person develops out of nowhere,
For the mere fact that this person is forcing me to do something I’m not used to.
Yes it may be out of the goodness of their heart, meaning well and thinking they are helping...
To me, a massive part of me kicks them to my bad books slowly and surely.

I’m not sure how I expect people to react to my silence.

But the one person I know that handles it best is my mother.
She treats my silence with the silence of her own...
We’ve had Mother-Daughter fights a few times,
Where I would just apologised anyways even when I sometimes didn’t mean it;
Where I would get soo mad at her that I wouldn’t speak to her for a few days,
She reflected that right back to me.
Strangely this allowed me time for my soul search;
Time and space to weigh both our viewpoints without being bias,
Eventually I would understand how and why she was right and I was wrong (or vice versa).

With this understanding, I would accept that even if she was right (or wrong sometimes, lol)

She’s human too like I am.
She is one of the people that care about me and so she obviously means well.
For this one fact that she gave me my space and time to corroborate this by myself,
I would love her even more and that “meaningless apology” would turn to be truly meant.
This gave me, ‘once again’ - another opportunity/freedom of choice,
To speak to her with this understanding, calmness and acceptance
...It is with this acceptance that I would make sure the deed is not repeated.
I feel my silence is my best way of respecting the other person,
And I know not of any other better way (I don’t even want to learn any).

If all those close to me would react this very way to this silent “therapy” of mine,

I believe the chances of me hurting others would be lowered,
And there would be less heartache around me.
I know for certain that time is never guaranteed...
But I prefer spending this time finding myself and righting my wrong,
Than worrying and feeling bad about the things I said and did during an emotional ordeal.

I believe things can be changed to either the best or the worst in a fraction of a second.

I also believe that this can easily be due to the word of mouth.
Saying something out of anger and being unable to take it back, ever!
This could change everything,
How it would always hang above one’s head even in the happiest days.
I believe it’s better to wish I had said something, than wishing I had NOT.
Because what I wish I had said, can always be said now,
Better built in better words and certainty of not hurting anyone...
Even if the person is no more, the freedom of no regret for having said something hurtful remains

I know I have said hurtful things to people and have not apologized for it, I’M SORRY.

I know I have written hurtful things that people felt were/are directed to them, I’M SORRY.
If I have done hurtful things to people without being aware of it or apologising for it, I’M SORRY.
Unfortunately I cannot apologise for being me, so this apology is for the things I say, write, and do... when I’m PUSHED OUT of my comfort zone, when I’m pushed to NOT be me.
When cornered and feeling like I have no way out, I lose it.
I lose some tiny bit of my sanity, the little bunch of manners and respect fly out the window.
It’s something I cannot help, and I’m not sure if this falls under what many may call “an excuse”.
But this is me, it’s how I am, and I do not have any better way to be what some may call “better”.

One thing for certain I do NOT enjoy causing pain to another being.

Be it an enemy (if I have any), or a friend...
Let alone an animal for that matter.
So from the bottom of my heart I sincerely apologise for all the pain I have caused.
And I whole heartedly ask to be given my SILENT MOMENTS
– for they are my only drive to Happiness.