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Time Appreciation!!! **Lerato Ngapo**

For quite a long time I have heard the words:

"Spend your day like it’s your very last"

Doing the things with the people you love or just making sure they know you love them

Sad and rather confusing how this saying mainly haunts us when we've just lost someone unexpectedly (sad that it’s mostly Unexpected)

To this still-mysterious ordeal called "Death"

Be not proud you stranger...

Death, you’re a stranger that we know but can never truly define

You live among us yet we still find it hard to recognize you

You're just a moody something that just comes around as it pleases

No doorbell... No black clouds... Just Smoke, to show the already done deed.

You're so cruel you force us to have to understand you

Yet you refuse to understand us, 

To understand that perhaps we need more time?!?

We're meant to live on such a contradictory world that says we have all the time in it

Yet turns and says we have limited time, and we should use it "wisely"

I personally reason with your existence as being "The balance of life"

Some means to try understanding that we can't all fit on to this stupidly and surprisingly small world.

This makes it no less hard though!!

I know we'll meet, recognize and know exactly who you are...

...But in our own uniquely "given" time and way,

It’s sad because even then you'll still deny us the time to inform and prepare our loved ones who we’ll be leaving behind

Recently, you have claimed our most wonderful and beloved LERATO NGAPO...

A lovely, beautiful young lady whom we've grown to know, love and make pleasant memories with

Life, as sometimes misleading as it is, made us look forward to her beautiful successful future

In the meanwhile, we went on about our 'lives' and forgot to make time to show appreciation

Little did we know that God had his own different plans, or is it rather that we chose not to dwell on the thoughts of What-Ifs?

We went to church together, and she used to come to me for some advice...

We’d end on a note that she should always strive for success and avoid distractions.

I keep reminding myself to not question The Lords' intelligence.

But such deals are hard to be kept intact.

I keep the hope that one day,

...just one day, we'll all get the answers to every single question we've ever had...

One day, definitely in another lifetime.

Heartaches with intense confusions were created to be cried upon,

Because in some strange way... the tears almost sooth the pain away.

I did cry about Lerato's passing, 

We weren't necessarily "close", but I loved her so much like a little sister

...and had always envisioned an amazing future for her

It feels like an unfulfilled promise, an unwanted wake from a Beautiful dream.

It deeply saddens and confuses me entirely.

I'd seen her furious, happy, and sad

I've heard her crazy sweet laughter, crazy sarcastic remarks on certain things, annoyed statements...

.. And always admired her presence, it always put a smile to my face to see her smiling back.

She had a lovely smile, which she always carried around with her even on some of her sad days.

I truly cannot recall a bad memory of her,

That’s why I loved her so dearly (and will always love the memory of her)

Her church life was filled with so many beautiful people, who truly loved her, 

This I know for I had witnessed it first hand

May her beautiful soul Rest in perfect peace, 

I speak for the few mutual friends we shared when I say:

"We appreciate the limited time we had been blessed with, to have spent with her... We are truly grateful to have known you the way we did... We will most definitely miss you, some more than others yes, but we'll all still miss you."

I pray that God strengthens your family through this unfortunate ordeal, that he blesses them with the wisdom of dealing well with it all.

FAREWELL 'RATOO', 

As Bongani had said "Till we meet again Lady Lira"

Rest in Peace Lovie.

 PS: our love for you remains intact!